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LIFEZ A BEAT
been thru so much...buh i still managed tah get thru it..gota thank tha Lord above for blessing me...
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to my baby ryan...i wana thank you for always inspiring to better myself..for always loving me and accepting me for me...you've given me the lil push in life that i needed...i will never be able to show you how much i appreciate that...i love you so much unconditionally ..lol...i luv you butt head! =P even tho ur uh idiot! keke remember
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| DAY TW0
ME vs. THE C0LD
damn this sickness!! my nose wont stop running....i wont stop sneezing nd this damn throat wont stop aching T_T ... this is the werst cold case ive ever had! argh...
i cant believe i was doing homework fer 6 hourz yesterday... i think i just got sicker cuz of staying up late.. *sighz* how sad T_T ...
at school today i had to make up a physics test... dern that was hard... even though i read both chapters yesterday..nothing sank in... ehkk... after skoo i had to make up uh AP ART history test... which i completely hurried through n guessed on becuz i had to pick up my lil brother...cuz he had DETENTION... haha.. =p ..
everyone is gona wear chucks tah match der homecoming dresses.. haha... ima buy pink n black wunz tah match minez ^_^ ... ryan sed he'd get sum tooh.. haha.. he has to wear pink n black tooh.. lol.. sorry babe..
on friday me n ryan r supposed tah watch shark tale nd go to FRiGHT FESt cuz im off of werk on that day.. =] nd on saturday ima go with niks n errywun else agen tah fright fest..=] good timez... hopefully my cold wont get worse tho... ima take sum medicine later...
well i think i shud go take uh nap before i start my homework...i need sum rest...soO tah tah for now..
-sam | | |
| today was a boring day...
i actually did my hmwk.. yay for me =D .. hehe it may seem like a little thing..but tri missing four dayz of school and making it all up... argh what uh stress bag... i started at 5 o' clock its now 1o o' clock n i am yet to be done.. tomorrow i have to make up uh AP art history test.. ehh thats gona suck...nd i gota make up uh physics test!! dernit ALL!!!
im just taking uh lil break to update this.. =] well i changd the theme jus cuz i love destinys child new song sOoo much right now hehe..
yesterday i got my homecoming dress and did uh lil splurging at victoria secrets.. hehe good times.. the weird part was.. i was with my auntie the whole time.. ehh.. it was uh lil weird but ohh well.. heh..lately i've been seeing my style of clothing change so much.. im in to buying clothes at zumiez now nd i seem to be drawn into hot topic now.. am i turnin rocker now? n0oo0 hehe.. i guess its cuz im too lazy to tri nd look good now.. im more comfortable just being COMFORTABLE in my clothes.. hehe.. but its always fun dressing up now and then
im getting sick now... =[ i have a nose that wont stop running and sneezing nd a throat that wont stop aching.. ergh i feel terrible.. stupid fall.. stupid coldness.. argh stupid low immunity! hehe =[ im sneezing every five seconds now nd blowing my nose in between.. argh how suckyfull
welpz i seem to be going out of my limit now of "break time" so i guess i should go...tah tah for now
-sam | | |
| wednsday sept 22, 2o04
iono...today in short was long sad and confusing i dont know what to do er what to think ne more.. i cant even tell who are my real friends ne more... er do i even have any? this is all so much to take in.. i reely dont know.. there are only a few people now i kno i can count on... my babe whos always been there for me no matter what.. theresa my bestest friend in the whole werld.. ive known her since i was BORN.. she is one person i kno will never betray me.. and of course God.. who has been there for me through all my ruffest times.. the one who accepts me for me and helps me through it all...no matter what... how can a few days change my whole life... are these tears worth it.. or am i crying over nothing? .. i dont know.. my whole life is changing so fast...
my moms two sisters arrived from the phillippines today.. nd of course my mom trys tah act like the perfect mom in front of them...=/ .. fakeness... iono.. whatever floats her boat..
today i did laundry with mah babe =] nd i got car estimates fer muh scratch/dent $500!! wow.. thats uh lot of money.. well i guess i have to wait fer my bonus.. after all that me n him went tah the mall tah look fer clothes n stuff fer homecoming.. hehe... i couldnt find ne thing.. i ended up buying this really cute keychain from sanrio nd candy.. haha.. ohh wellz.. i think im getting uh lil too picky wit muh clothing.. er its all too expensive.. -_-* ... hehe
well homecomings coming around soon...ryan still hasnt askd mah mom if he could take me..lol.. oohh wellz... we havent decided on uh color yet either.. hehe.. im thinkn brown er bergendy.. heh..iono we still gota finish the bid form... ders so many things tah figure out..
tomorrow i got uh dentist appt. nd i gota pick up mah lil brother frum skoo nd i gota go to napa fer beauty skool.. argh so much to do..so little time..
well i better go now...take carez everywun
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| well i guess im starting this blog thing again...
everything seems so different now... i meen i have this blog so i can let out feelings // emotions // how i feel... its uh stress reliever...meng things have been so crazy lately i need this...
it seems like i dont even have control over my own life... its my senior year... everyone is so excited about going on to a UC er uh CSU er sum great college... then i think of myself... seems like my life is being decided for me.. i have to go to beauty school.. i have to go to uh community college first... it all doesnt seem fair.. i wish i could be the person i want to be.. instead of the person my parents want me to be..i cant handle all the pressure.. its all so much...
at school im not having any good luck also... it was senior panoramic picture day..i nearly cried my eyes out today... sad to say but i feel like this year is gona be a repeat of last year.. maybe even worser.. i have uh four period day now cuz i have to go to beauty school.. nd that meenz less time fer frenz...buh im still there.. i meen i still like to be included...iono maybe its juss me... buh i feel so outcasted... especially today.. to put on top of it all i was sickk.. meng...T_T i was so depressed... buh it seemed as if no one cared...
ive been getting uh lot of sheit from mah mom also.. her sisters from the phillippines are coming tomorrow.. nd to prepare for that she made me go on uh diet to lose 10 lbs. in 3 dayz.. it was basically starving myself for 3 dayz.. nd she keeps naggn meh bouh mah weight n keepin healthy n all this sheit... makes me feel so fukkn depressd like im not good enuf.. will i ever be good enuf? i feel like shes embaressed of me...im so ashamed to look in the mirror now.. n see the horrible reflection that appears before me..
my car got scratched the other day...nd mah mom found out.. meng yeah that was big trouble.. got in BIG trouble especially cuz mah aunties r coming tomorrow... i gota pay fer it n fix it tomorrow...nd do all this other sheit..they gona take mah room so i gota prepare it..
so many things to accomplish so little time...so many expectations feels like i cant fufill.. iono kno what to do...i feel so lost...ive been praying lately.. hoping that things would change.. buh it doesnt seem to werk.. i wish that people didnt put so much on me... and expect so much.. im sorry i cant be the person you want me to be.. i can only be me.. i try to change... buh it never seems to werk.. it only seems to get worse...
i guess i shouldnt tripp on it so hard...buh it just hurts so much..to have this feeling of betrayal in you.. i feel so vulnerable right now.. so weak.. that i dont even know what to do... im so glad i got mah boyfriend to help me... i dont know what i would do with out him...
it seems like hes the only one who carez out of errywun now.. it even seems like even my close friends have dissappeared... buh through it all my babe has been there.. now i wonder what is a true friend? is there reely such uh thing.. i dont even know what to think...im so...
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|  i dont know why...but the memories of summer are reely starting to get to meh...i wish i could go back...i miss them... | | |
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http://merlin.che.gatech.edu/~Davos/uploads/1/Krystal_Harris_-_Angel_on_my_Shoulder_(3).mp3
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